The Consolation Of A Dream

I tend to dream a lot, and have a lot of notes written about dreams and pieces of dreams that I am still working with, sometimes years after I had the original dream.

One of my favourite dreams is one I had about 30 years ago, when I was living in a very noisy residence for nurses, attached to the Hospital I then worked in. It is a dream that I remember whenever things ‘get on top of me’ and I then revisit that dream, either during those minutes before going to sleep or sometimes during meditation.

I dreamt I was at the edge of a lake. The sun was shining brightly and I stood with bare feet on the hot sand. A man appeared who handed me a white robe, and said it was time. I slipped the robe over my head and walked into the water. He said I would be able to breathe underwater and I needed to swim until I found ‘it’. He did not actually tell me what ‘it’ was.

I dived into the cooling water, and swam ever deeper, with my eyes wide open. There were some odd things down in that lake. Old shopping trollies, bicycles, bottles – all sort of rubbish. Then I saw my grandmother, and I thought it was odd that she was in the lake, since she had been cremated and I could not figure out what she was doing there. She waved and smiled at me, and I kept on diving. I saw some other things – that are highly personal to me, and I don’t really want to write about, but I know that in that dream I started crying. Odd that you can cry, when you are covered in water, and yet the tears streamed in the water. Some of the things I saw scared me a lot and I started to panic. I heard the man’s voice telling me to keep going down, and not to worry about the scary things since they were not real – as I could work out if I tried to touch them and they were just my own thoughts.

After what seemed like an eternity, I was on the bottom of the lake, but still had not found ‘it’. The bottom of the lake was clean, there was no debris here, as though all the rubbish and ideas had been left behind, and here was just a white sand underwater beach. I noticed that there was a small ‘hill’ of sand in the distance and swam towards it. As I reached the hill I realized it was much bigger than I had thought, and there was a cave in one side of it. A sense of fear touched me, should I enter a dark underwater cave? I decided I would trust what the man had said, that nothing would harm me, and it was all my imagination, and entered the cave. The walls of the cave spiralled up and up as though I was inside a giant slug-house, and they were made of crystal. There was beautiful light everywhere, filtered with all the colours of the rainbow and some more I could not even describe, caused by the water outside the ‘windows’. In the centre of the room was a small white pillar and on it was a casket. A small casket. My curiosity led me towards the pillar and I looked closer at the casket. It was in the shape of a human heart. Suddenly a small key dangled in front of me, and I took the key and opened the little heart casket. Inside it was a pearl. I reached out my hand and closed it over the pearl. I was much bigger than any pearl I had ever seen and was reflecting all the rainbow light from the room. As I took the pearl in my hand, a sense of total knowing and love flooded me and I realized the pearl was mine. I sat down with the pearl in my hands. I felt as though I would want to spend the rest of my life sitting here, never coming back up to the surface again.

After a while, the man said it was time to come back up. I started to leave the cave, reluctantly, when he told me I would have to leave the pearl behind in the casket, but I could keep the key forever. A small golden necklace appeared and the key attached itself to the necklace and then fastened round my neck. I kissed the pearl and put it back in its little nest, crying because I did not want to leave it behind. The man said I did not need to cry, I could come back whenever I wanted and sit with the pearl and it would always be there waiting for me. He said I carried that pearl within me, and it was the core of who I was around which I had made my life.

When I got back up to the surface the man was gone, but the sun was still shining.

I visit this dream often, and each time it is slightly different, the debris changes, the monsters are not scary any more but the one constant that is always there is that large pearl, around which I was formed.

Do you have any dreams that feel like they were more than just a dream, dreams that almost feel like the Source has been visiting you whilst you were sleeping?

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Slow Start To The Week – week beg 25.11.1013

What greets this week is The Hanged Man – card XII

This card often strikes fear in the hearts of someone who has requested a reading, but there is no need. The man, though suspended by one leg with his head hanging down, does not look as though he is in pain, and it appears he has willingly allowed himself to be hung from The Tree of Life. Around his head is a halo, indicating a spiritual aspect to his choice.This card counsels us to not take any action at the moment, it is a time for ‘hanging about’ and seeing things from a different angle (try hanging upside down and the world looks totally different). It indicates that we are stuck and feeling the need to make a decision (which may even feel urgent for us) but that now is not the time to make that decision. Rather wait and see if the new angle we get on things from our different viewpoint leads us to a solution that we had not thought of. It is possible that we have overlooked something that will be more useful than our usual point of view for making us achieve what we want. If it does not feel right, do nothing and look at the situation from different points of view, it may be that the universe is sending us a solution we have overlooked so far.

What meets this week is the Hierophant – card V

This card represents organised and traditional belief systems Рthe Hierophant (also known as the High Priest or Pope) is in possession of the knowledge to lead to Spirit and is  charged with leading initiates along this way. This card means that now is not the time to start being innovative in our belief systems, but rather to adapt to the existing system Рleaving the status quo alone. This may be a time of some formal education, which will bear fruit later. The message the Hierophant sends us following on from the Hanged Man is that whilst we are hanging about it may be a good time to examine our belief system honestly, throw out those parts that no longer serve us, and ask ourselves how we operate as a result of our beliefs and how our beliefs affect our lives. It may be time to join a group or organization, though this may just be as simple as joining a gym, or as complex as committing to a structured system of spiritual teaching. It may also indicate that we will meet someone who will help us advance on our Path, (a guru if you like) who will lead us with integrity and without ulterior motives.

The week ends with The Magician – card I

The Magician has absolute power – as we have seen in previous readings. He is a sign that we have more power than we are aware of and that our potential is unlimited. With his multiple symbols of Eternity, and all the elements combined, the Magician indicates that we have at our disposal unlimited possibilities to manifest what we want – provided we are acting from our Power (presumably worked out by the spiritual searching the Hierophant counsels us to do). A situation will be presented to us (soon) that has all the inherent elements to allow the manifestation of our desires. The Magician asks us to be very clear about precisely what it is we want, and then to use all our gifts, skills and knowledge to set about manifesting that.

Overall then, a ¬†week that starts slowly – asking us to suspend ourself and our actions, take stock of our belief systems and how they affect what we are, ditch what does not suit us any more and then at the end of the week we shall be in a position of power and unlimited opportunity. The time for starting a ‘new’ project (or renewing focus and commitment to an existing project) is towards the end of the week – provided we have considered new angles, done our work on belief systems etc. it should be a fruitful beginning to something new.

Have a great week everyone.

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Battery Hen Or Free Range – The Slavery Remains

A short post, had a huge shift in thinking last night from which I am still reeling and which is requiring a lot of research to be used into writing what I think may turn into a short e-book (if I can pull it off).

Imagine for a moment that you are a battery hen. You have had all your natural impulses bred out of you, you have on-demand food and permanent light sources that totally confuse your natural being. You fight with other battery hens for the food that will only make you fatter faster so you can be slaughtered.

Then a few hens start to wake up to the reality of what will happen to them and refuse to go along with the conspicuous consumption that will make their deaths come faster. The farmer notices this. So he has a plan.

The next day he opens the door to the shed and the hens are put outside in a lovely big field. No longer are there mountains of artificial pellets of ‘food’, instead the hens are now free to run around the field and eat real grubs and the things that the hens would have eaten before battery farming became normal. What a great life. The hens are so grateful to the kind farmer. They are no longer slaves, they have a much better life, more space, more natural foods – wow, life is great.

Until of course the day comes that they will be rounded up and taken to the slaughter house to be dispatched.

Understand that as long as we let others control us, we remain like these hens. We may change the reality of the battery farm for a free range farm, but we shall still be owned and we shall still be led to the slaughter.


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Know Yourself week beg 18/11/2013

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What greets this week is the Magician (card 1)

We have met the Magician before, he starts the journey we are to make, and is the sign of a new cycle. He is surrounded by all four suits of the Tarot (the four elements and also the use of the mind, heart, body and soul). He holds a staff pointing to Heaven and his hand down to the earth – signifying that he channels the power from heaven, through his body and into the physical plane – whilst he is surrounded by symbols of eternity. We start a new cycle this week, in which we can manifest our deepest desires by utilizing the powers of the Universe. However, before you ask, go within to work out and clarify what your underlying motives and intentions are. Once you have a clear understanding of what it is you are attempting to manifest – then Focus. The Magician is the card of power, concentration and action.

What meets this week is The Lovers (card 6)

This card shows two lovers and an Angel (usually interpreted as Raphael, Angel of Healing and dressed in green). Apart from the fairly obvious interpretation of this being a card of love, union, relationship etc. the card on a more personal level speaks to us about working out of our own personal belief system and what we really stand for. It is time to work out your true values (this harks back again to the Magician as well) – you will then be confronted by a choice on a grand scale – which may involve making a choice between two different courses of action, one of which will lead to a dead-end and the other one who knows where? The choice we are required to make this week is not an easy one – and we can only make it if the choice is informed by a clear knowledge of what we really believe in. So again, the Focus is internal to start with, work out what we want, work out how to make a choice that is in alignment with our deepest held beliefs. If we choose the easier route, it may lead to the moral low-ground, be sure to consider honestly whether the easy choice is what you really want – it may give us a quick ‘fix’ but we ultimately may have to ‘unchoose’ that road again because it goes against what we know is ‘right’.

At the end of the week stands the Chariot (card 7)

Imagine if you can for a moment, driving a Chariot which is being drawn by two sphinxes (or horses) into the heat of battle. Other Chariots are zooming round you, there are no traffic lights – earth flying, battle cries and you are to control this fast moving chariot. Then look at the card (sorry the photo is so blurry). Not only is there no sign of fear on the face of the occupant of the Chariot, he is not even holding the reins. There are no reins. What the driver does hold is the wand held by the Magician – meaning that he controls the chariot through strength of will alone. He is driving away from the city – the material world and is surrounded by a canopy covered in stars, indicating heavenly factors affecting his success. He wears a crown made of laurels and stars – indicating a high level of enlightenment. The black and white sphinxes indicate balance – the union of dark and light and all other polarities into one unified whole. It is time to be strong, and ask for what you want clearly and without any worries – but that asking has to come from faith within yourself and what you stand for (thus harking back to the Lovers card which asked us to make this internal journey). The Chariot tells us that if we come from a place of authenticity and focus, we can have what we want, as long as we remain confident and in control.

Overall this week then – a time to clarify who we are, what we really believe in, and what we really want to achieve. A time to use all our powers of body, mind, soul and heart and examine our motivations. Once we know what motivates us, ask for what we want and focus, using will and confidence that we will achieve it. Overall a very positive reading, providing we do the internal work first.

Have a great week everyone.



News Letter

I thought it might be a great idea to produce a news letter once in a while and also to keep in touch with the people who read this blog. So I have organized a programme that will allow you to sign up for the News Letter, which I will write probably about once a month and you will also get updates on when a new blog post is written.

I promise there will be no spam, but subscribers to my news letters will be the only ones who can take advantage of some offers I will put in, like maybe a free healing session or a tarot reading – depending on what my offer is that month.

Your email address is safe with me, and will not be sold, given to or in any way distributed to any other person or organization. If you don’t like the news letter it is easy to unsubscribe so no need to worry about that either. I hope to see many of you in my new little programme.

Take care everyone